On salvation

Writing this keeps me thinking about salvation. Finding what we're looking for in life, what's best for us, etc.

My narrator finds salvation in someone who will later kill himself. Hence, "We create our saviors."

But, as I've come to think about a lot lately, is it possible to save ourselves? Is there a way to avoid all outside sources to find true happiness in ourselves? Is there anyone out there that doesn't count on anything -- work, a significant other, drugs, alcohol - to find moments of bliss?

Some would say yes. Others would say no. I say we all have some kind of dependence.

Then self-actualization comes into play. Growing instead of destroying. Taking care of lower needs and then proceeding to higher ones. Those reaching self-actualization show some certain points:
• They embrace reality and facts rather than denying truth
• They are spontaneous
• They are interested in solving problems which may include personal problems or the emotional conflicts of others
• They are accepting of themselves and others and lack prejudice

But I don't think anyone can reach these on their own. You have to find what drives you, whether in relationships with others or yourself, and then move up from there.

Whatever. That's just what's going on in my gourd right now.